February 4, 2009

  • Too Long Gone

    So, yeah, not been getting a lot of mileage out of my lifetime membership here lately. Not so much a matter of having nothing to say or enough time to put it down so much as sheer laziness. I keep thinking "I should blog about that" (seen as a sign of insanity in some cultures) but I always find an excuse to read another chapter, play a bit more of my game, stuff like that. Well, I'm forcing myself to write something today. In part because I feel like I should write something and in part because I'm lacking (as many) diversions. I'm home sick, more or less. *wrinkles nose* Or at least I spent most of the day sick, and when I left work to get to the seminar for Capoeira, I realized that not only did my limbs feel weak as they'd done all day, but I was actually shivering despite it not being very cold and me wearing a rather warm coat with fur lining. All in all, it was convincing enough for me. I can't seem to find my thermometer to check my temperature (I have a vague feeling of having seen it recently, but I can't quite place where) but I don't feel overly warm. I've been mildly nauseated throughout the day, mainly because my sense of smell was going all wonky. Or at least I think it was... maybe everyone else was smelling the same things and just acting like there wasn't a reek. My body hurt, I felt weak and shaky, and I had trouble focusing. And, even though I've eaten fairly copiously, I have been starving all day. Anyhow, I decided not to go to class, and furthermore decided that it wasn't worth going back into work for another hour or two. Hopefully, I feel better tomorrow.

    So, updates on life. Last I posted, we had yet to start performances of Babes in Toyland. It went well in my opinion. We had some shaky bits on stage including a dancer hurting her wrist, a toy firetruck going off on stage, blocks flying into the audience, and an actress's bracelet having a critical existence failure when she was slapping me onstage, again sending things flying into the audience. The audience had fun. The actors had fun. Good show. I'm currently in final rehearsals for Measure for Measure with Collingswood Shakespeare. I'm having a hard time getting a handle on my character, as he talks in a much different voice (and I'm not talking about Shakespearean dialect) than I do, but the director seems to think I'm doing alright.

    Then, there's Capoeira. *sigh* I'm in a slump. Partly, I've missed more class than I ought to between work and theater. Partly... I'm finding myself inexplicably getting worse as time goes by. I have some theories ranging from me getting to the point where I'm doing Capoeira rather than Capoeira-flavored Tae Kwan Do to the idea that maybe I'm hitting one of those physiological shifts I go through occasionally where my body decides to bulk up. The latter would even fit in nicely with how much my appetite has increased lately. But, ultimately, it's a big problem. I'm slowing other people down and I'm just not having much fun at it. It's a bit better when I show up at the beginner classes, but I'm not supposed to do that as a green-belt, for all that I think it's the best possible solution for me currently. Eh, if it truly becomes a problem, they can tell me to stop, right?

    Otherwise... life is pretty normal, I guess. So many things I ought to be doing with my life, but I'm in a comfortable rut in a lot of ways. I'm lonely here, as much as I hate to admit it. For whatever reason, I'm having a hell of a time connecting with people. I do have a few friends about town, but I find myself forgetting about them for days at a time (admittedly, that's how I wind up with my college friends, albeit substitute weeks to months to years on that count). I dunno... around June, I'm going to put out some feelers about Pittsburgh jobs. There, I had some pretty steady friends and, of course, I have family. Maybe it will be better for me. This man was not meant to live alone.