July 12, 2008

  • *sigh* Well, we had a good show. We had a party afterwards. I'm feeling depressed. *wry grin* No fault of the show, or of the cast. I just don't do parties well, and the longer I stay, trying to fit in and failing, the more down I get as I realize I'm not going to fit in. Eh. But I'm a human and I keep persisting. I hurt too... that toe isn't really getting better. There's a bit of flesh that keeps growing over the toenail and then splitting and bleeding. I've been applying antibiotic ointment and keeping it bandaged when I'm not airing it, but it's definitely a bit infected, and the hours that I have to keep my feet in confining shoes are not doing it any good. And compensating for that toe is leading to cramping throughout my foot. Add to it that for some reason my elbow and forearm have been experiencing periodic (really rather infrequent) shooting pains, and I'm not a happy camper, particularly as I don't know why this is happening. Meh, I'll sleep and feel better in the morning. I don't know if I'll be doing Capoeira. We'll see.

    You know what I hate most about depressed like this? I feel like I've got nothing I'm really justified in complaining about, so I feel all the worse for feeling down. You know?